Im Scared.

The truth is I am scared. I am scared of not passing my National Boards Part 2. I am scared of not finishing and passing my competency in dental school. I am scared of not passing my dental licensing exam. These are all HUGE obstacles for me to overcome in these next 10 months. I do not think of myself as the best by any means but rather someone who works really hard, which is scary as well.

Today I read in what has become my favorite devotionals - she reads truth - its an app that is amazing. Today's devotional was about Ruth. Ruth couldn't see the whole beautiful tapestry of her story, God had blessings and goodness planned for her.

-- He promises that His plans are always good for us, and that He is enough (Rom. 8:27-28). He holds our future and we are safe in Him.--
-- Lord, you are my portion and my cup of blessing; you hold my future. (Psalm 16:5) --

These two verses really struck me. I shouldn't be scared of these obstacles that appear in-conquerable, but, yet I am.

My prayer today and everyday is I remember His plans are always good for us, that I am safe in the arms of my loving father, that He is holding on to me.

A BIG end to a BIG year.

And by year I mean "school year". However soon my life will no longer revolve around a "school year". For the first time in 20 years when I think of a year I'll think of January-December.

I want to write this down because I don't want to forget this moment of anticipation for the end of this year. 

At the end of this year:

- I will finish Dental school.. WHAT

- I will never be in school again 

- I will be a licensed dentist.. Can't even believe those words 

- my husband will turn the Big 3-0 

- my husband will have completed his first year as an orthodontic resident! 

- I will move away from a state I've called home for the last 12 years. 

And lastly and most importantly ... 

My husband and I will FINALLY be done with this long distance journey !! 

There are so many challenges between now and the end of the year.. And my prayer tonight is that I rely on God's strength and not my own.